I've got the blues.............
Ben keeps telling people, I feel bad for my wife... put her career on hold while I slog it out here, stuck alone at home, bored n lonely, sent out at least a hundred job applications, people offering her peanuts...
Then I keep reminding him that I'm the one having it easy since I just laze around all day. Stay up all night using the computer, then sleep till mid noon. I hardly even have to get out of my jammies or "house clothes" except for once a week when I go out to get groceries.
But a few days ago, I started feeling down n distant, not knowing why. And then suddenly, I cracked! I just got so fed up about the whole "drama" concerning my Powerbook adapter. Each time I call the shops, they say the same thing, "We've ordered it in, it will be here next week". And they say this every %^$&^@{ week! It's just so bloody frustrating and I wonder how people can be so obnoxious as to promise customers the same thing week after week but not deliver. Ben found out from a colleague that he's been waiting for the same adapter for his iBook since last year. He gave up calling the shops after 3 months, so now his laptop is just sitting around doing nothing, like most of the people here.
So, it finally got to me. The fact that all I do is wait. Waiting for Dubai to deliver. Waiting for promised phonecalls that never come. Waiting for a good job offer that seems unheard of for Asians here. Waiting for Ben to get home from work each day. Waiting for good news. Waiting for ANY news since the whole world seems to be moving except in Dubai. Waiting for actual "life" to begin, if not in this dreadful place, then anywhere else but here.
But everything is at a standstill for me. I feel as if the whole world moved on and left me behind. Life itself moved on, but I could not. All that's left behind is a shadow of who I am. Like Peter Pan, I desperately need some stitching.
So as ironic as it sounds, this "lady of leisure" is taking a break and retreating to Singapore and PJ for a month next week. Gotta regain my true colours once more 'cos blue just doesn't look good on me.
Ben keeps telling people, I feel bad for my wife... put her career on hold while I slog it out here, stuck alone at home, bored n lonely, sent out at least a hundred job applications, people offering her peanuts...
Then I keep reminding him that I'm the one having it easy since I just laze around all day. Stay up all night using the computer, then sleep till mid noon. I hardly even have to get out of my jammies or "house clothes" except for once a week when I go out to get groceries.
But a few days ago, I started feeling down n distant, not knowing why. And then suddenly, I cracked! I just got so fed up about the whole "drama" concerning my Powerbook adapter. Each time I call the shops, they say the same thing, "We've ordered it in, it will be here next week". And they say this every %^$&^@{ week! It's just so bloody frustrating and I wonder how people can be so obnoxious as to promise customers the same thing week after week but not deliver. Ben found out from a colleague that he's been waiting for the same adapter for his iBook since last year. He gave up calling the shops after 3 months, so now his laptop is just sitting around doing nothing, like most of the people here.
So, it finally got to me. The fact that all I do is wait. Waiting for Dubai to deliver. Waiting for promised phonecalls that never come. Waiting for a good job offer that seems unheard of for Asians here. Waiting for Ben to get home from work each day. Waiting for good news. Waiting for ANY news since the whole world seems to be moving except in Dubai. Waiting for actual "life" to begin, if not in this dreadful place, then anywhere else but here.
But everything is at a standstill for me. I feel as if the whole world moved on and left me behind. Life itself moved on, but I could not. All that's left behind is a shadow of who I am. Like Peter Pan, I desperately need some stitching.
So as ironic as it sounds, this "lady of leisure" is taking a break and retreating to Singapore and PJ for a month next week. Gotta regain my true colours once more 'cos blue just doesn't look good on me.
